salam.. hmpir berbulan2 jgak tak update blog ni, sjak my life getting boring. i'll be more prefer to be invisible in this world. tetapi malam ni sye tak taw knp, bagaimana dan apa yg mmbuat sye ade kudrat utk menulis isi hati sye yg sbenar2 nya kt blog sekarang ni. before this, sye lbih ske pendam or kalis2 so no one will guess the truth. but this time, i dont care and i have no shy at all. well listen people. im only write this once it for all.

what do u feel when u have to walk this world alone? when u have no one to hold on to, no one to trust to, no one at ur side anymore? itu yg sye rase kn sekarang. sbb sye ta de sape2 lg yg boleh sye percaya, yg ade hny blog dan sye. im not gonna mention my fmily, sbb sye tak nak menyusahkan mereka lagi. not in a million years guys. 

ape tu cinta? hahaha crazy stupid question.. cinta pada lelaki or perempuan.. krn cinta la sye merana.. cinta yg bwat sye giler.. cinta yg bwat sye sengsara.. walaupon tak semua cinta itu menyakitkan dan melukakan, tapi ini cerita cinta sye. cinta dan sayang pada kekasih yg akhirnya jdik mimpi buruk mngejar di dalam jaga sye dan mimpi sye.. cinta dan kesetiaan pada sahabat yg akhirnya memecahkan belahkan hati sye berkeping2.. wow, its all happen in just one night. seriously, i have no one to trust. sad is it? but dont be, coz those people that once to be the most important persons in my life did this to me. life isn't that beautiful that u see guys. some are so lucky and some are not simple example is me. people that i thoughts would be my strength when i was weak, my voice when i couldn't speak, my eyes when i couldn't see.. sye ingt mereka faham kehendak hati sye.. tapi sye silap dr dulu lagi.. silap sye yg tak luahkan segalanya, tp dh terlambat utk ptah balik masa. sye benci mereka sume yg pastinya sekarang, ape mereka ingat hati sye ni kertas????? dah tahu keadaan nye sudah sedia ada teruk, knp nk tambah lagi tingkat kesengsaraan sye ni? siapa mereka nk bwat sye mcm ni? ape hak mereka ke atas "hati kertas" sye?? trime kasih atas usaha yg hanya menambah kebencian di hati sye, thnx a lot! =( 

wut im gonna do? no one will u help u anymore! coz u just said they betraying ur heart.~ then walk alone now babe! klu sye ni tak fikir pnjag, malam td lagi dh tamat riwayat. khatam! hahaha. sye dh giler dgn sume dugaan ni, demimu ya allah.. dugaan ini trlalu berat utk ku slama 24tahun aku di dunia ni.. ya allah aku buntu...... knp manusia yg aku sayang berbuat sedemikian pd ku ya allah? knp madu ku dibalas dgn racun ya allah........ mungkin ini balasan mu utk ku....... if anyone ever read this, just dont bother it. it just a post from a person who feel that shes dont belong anymore to this cruel world. sye tak mintak ape2, tak nak menyusah kan sape2, sume nye tak kan pernah.. yg sye nk cuma mase utk sye bertenang, ruang utk sye bersendiri sebelum sye teruskan semula hidup ini... sbb sye belum bersedia, itu sje yg sye mampu jawab. "SAYA BELUM BERSEDIA"

wasalam.