Come in the evening, come in the morning, Come when expected, come without warning; Thousands of welcomes you'll find here before you, And the oftener you come, the more I'll adore you.
-Irish Ryhme-
Lots of things go unquestioned. Lots of things unanswered. Some feelings are burried alive. Some are born dead. "THIS IS LIFE"
"HURT me with the TRUE, but NEVER EVER comfort me with a LIE"
The longer you stay Single, the longer you become a public temptation and a potential threat to other's relationships! =p
enjoy reading my blog guys! and do come again for the next post! n i promise u the better post next time u visit again! c(=
hye, im the owner of the blog. just call my nick VIP. ^_^ Writing blog is one of my fav inda free time, and also visiting some of the cool blogs! just for inspiring myself. so be aware if im walking on your blog, i stalk coz i care! ngeh ngeh ngeh..
salam.. hmpir berbulan2 jgak tak update blog ni, sjak my life getting boring. i'll be more prefer to be invisible in this world. tetapi malam ni sye tak taw knp, bagaimana dan apa yg mmbuat sye ade kudrat utk menulis isi hati sye yg sbenar2 nya kt blog sekarang ni. before this, sye lbih ske pendam or kalis2 so no one will guess the truth. but this time, i dont care and i have no shy at all. well listen people. im only write this once it for all.
what do u feel when u have to walk this world alone? when u have no one to hold on to, no one to trust to, no one at ur side anymore? itu yg sye rase kn sekarang. sbb sye ta de sape2 lg yg boleh sye percaya, yg ade hny blog dan sye. im not gonna mention my fmily, sbb sye tak nak menyusahkan mereka lagi. not in a million years guys.
ape tu cinta? hahaha crazy stupid question.. cinta pada lelaki or perempuan.. krn cinta la sye merana.. cinta yg bwat sye giler.. cinta yg bwat sye sengsara.. walaupon tak semua cinta itu menyakitkan dan melukakan, tapi ini cerita cinta sye. cinta dan sayang pada kekasih yg akhirnya jdik mimpi buruk mngejar di dalam jaga sye dan mimpi sye.. cinta dan kesetiaan pada sahabat yg akhirnya memecahkan belahkan hati sye berkeping2.. wow, its all happen in just one night. seriously, i have no one to trust. sad is it? but dont be, coz those people that once to be the most important persons in my life did this to me. life isn't that beautiful that u see guys. some are so lucky and some are not simple example is me. people that i thoughts would be my strength when i was weak, my voice when i couldn't speak, my eyes when i couldn't see.. sye ingt mereka faham kehendak hati sye.. tapi sye silap dr dulu lagi.. silap sye yg tak luahkan segalanya, tp dh terlambat utk ptah balik masa. sye benci mereka sume yg pastinya sekarang, ape mereka ingat hati sye ni kertas????? dah tahu keadaan nye sudah sedia ada teruk, knp nk tambah lagi tingkat kesengsaraan sye ni? siapa mereka nk bwat sye mcm ni? ape hak mereka ke atas "hati kertas" sye?? trime kasih atas usaha yg hanya menambah kebencian di hati sye, thnx a lot! =(
wut im gonna do? no one will u help u anymore! coz u just said they betraying ur heart.~ then walk alone now babe! klu sye ni tak fikir pnjag, malam td lagi dh tamat riwayat. khatam! hahaha. sye dh giler dgn sume dugaan ni, demimu ya allah.. dugaan ini trlalu berat utk ku slama 24tahun aku di dunia ni.. ya allah aku buntu...... knp manusia yg aku sayang berbuat sedemikian pd ku ya allah? knp madu ku dibalas dgn racun ya allah........ mungkin ini balasan mu utk ku....... if anyone ever read this, just dont bother it. it just a post from a person who feel that shes dont belong anymore to this cruel world. sye tak mintak ape2, tak nak menyusah kan sape2, sume nye tak kan pernah.. yg sye nk cuma mase utk sye bertenang, ruang utk sye bersendiri sebelum sye teruskan semula hidup ini... sbb sye belum bersedia, itu sje yg sye mampu jawab. "SAYA BELUM BERSEDIA"
Cinta memang indah, dan sume orang ingin bercinta. tapi bagaimana bile apa yg kita miliki bukan yg kita inginkan, dan ape yg kita inginkan sukar utk dimiliki? Mungkin ketika kita membina cinta dgn seseorg, maka dialah g terbaik antara yg laen. WALAUPON dia sering melukai hati kita...
Berikut ada 8 TANDA yg mungkin bole menjadi main point, adakah SI DIA tercipta utk mu atau tidak:-
Bila kita sayang orang tu
Kita tnggu dia brape lame pon tak pe
Tp bila dia tnggu kita???dia marah2
Hati kata "alarh, adatlah ada yang menunggu dan ditunggu"
Bila kita sayang orang tu
Kita tak tido pon tak pe layan dia yg tngah boring,
Tapi bila kita bosan ada dia layan kita?
Hati kate, "tak pe dia busy kot"
Bila kita sayang orang tu
kita gaduh dgn dia, kita diam je.
Tapi dia heboh satu dunia
hati kate, "tak pe dia tension tu"
Bila kita sayang orang tu
Kita call nak cakap dgn dia
Tapi dia bagi phone kt orang lain atau matikan
Hati kate, "tak pe layan je kawan dia kawan kita jgak"
Bila kita sayang orang tu
Kita bercerita dgn dia, cerita dgn tunggul lagi baik.
Tapi bila dia bercerita dgn kita,
Kita dengar sepatah sepatah. kita kena ingat kalau tak kita yang kena marah.
Hati kata, "tak pe sayang katakan..."
Bila kita sayang orang tu
Kita sanggup bagi dia rest bila dia letih,
Tp bila kita letih, dia suruh juga kita
layan dia bila dia bosan
Adil ker? Hati kata, "alarh bukan selalu pun.."
Bila kita sayang orang tu
Kita jadi cam orang giler dengar dia sakit,
Tp bila kita sakit,
Dia siap kuar dgn kawan2 dia meraikan hari kesakitan kita,
Hati kata, "alarh tak pe, tak kan dia nak berkepit ngan kita 24 jam.."
hati kata itu hati kata ini..
sume hanya untuk orang yang tersayang.
untung kan? :)
Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there
I was playing back a thousand memories, baby
Thinkin' 'bout everythin' we've been through
Maybe I've been goin' back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside
'Til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends were laughing
'Cause nothing like this ever happened to them
Now, I'm pacing down the hall, chasing down your street
Flashback to the night when you said to me
"Nothing's gonna change, not for me and you "
Not before I knew how much I had to lose
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside
'Til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
If you're out there, if you're somewhere, if you're moving on
I've be waiting for you ever since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just wanna see you back at my front door
And I say come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you said it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I'd take it all back now
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside
'Til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby, what about the ending?
Oh, I thought you'd be here by now
That you'd be here by now
i'm not saying i have nothing. i'm not gonna saying i'm gone completely. it's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. sometimes i feel like it's too much. i'm not going to do anything stupid,
Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah ada seorang pelajar bertanya pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang menyentuh mengenai kasih dan sayang secara am. Dialog di antara pelajar dan guru tersebut berbunyi begini :
Pelajar : Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik sebagai orang paling kita sayang? Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak berkekalan?
Cikgu : Oh, kamu nak tahu ke?.Emmm...baiklah, sekarang kamu buat apa yang saya suruh. Ikut je ye...mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya.
hye guys! selamat pagi and selamat bersahur pd yg berpuasa untuk hari ini. hehe, post kali ni mengenai 5 benda yang cik writer akan buat bila die sedang bersedih, mara, kecewa dan sebagainya. maaf la, sejak dua menjak tiga menjak ni, cik writer selalu post pasal crite sedih. nak wat cam ne, memang nga bersedih pon skang ni . atas sebab apa, biar lah menjadi rahsie pada cik writer sendiri.ok proceed wit the 5 things!
1. cry me a river
sudah semestinya bile cik writer nga sedih ini lah benda pertama yang cik writer akan buat. sangat suke wat benda ni [yeke?]. orang kate, menangis jangan simpan2, luah kan je. sebab makin disimpan makin sakit kt dalam tu. bile da sakit kt dalam tu, hah paham2 je la sendiri ok? cik writer bukan jenis yang cepat menangis [keras hati la konon2 nye], tapi bile da stat menangis alamat nye banjir la pusat komersial sec 7 nanti. haha!
2. sleeping beauty
the next step [chewah..!] cik writer akan buat adalah tido! actually kalau ta sedih pon cik writer suke tido [kihkihkhih], tapi bile nga sedih lagi2 cik writer suke tido. even ta mengantok sekalipon, cik writer pakse gak mata ni supaya pejam and tido. haha! pelik tapi benar, sebab dengan tido kite akan lupe seketika masalah yang kite ade. so bile bangun nanti cik writer bole la berfikir secara rasional, dan carik jalan penyelesaian untuk masalah yang dihadapi [ok la tu kan...].
3. listen to the music
music adalah salah satu therapy yang amat berkesan bagi cik writer bile die sedang sedih atau marah. music melambangkan jiwa kita, so bile cik writer nga sedih cik writer akan cri lagu2 yang hepi or fun untuk menghiburkan hati yang sedang lara ni seperti lagu nasyid ke, lagu raye ke, lagu ramadhan ke dan sebagainya [alhamdulilah sejuk perut mak mengandungkan anak macam cik writer ni kan?].
4. photo album
ni pon cik writer suke buat bile nga sedih or merindui seseorang [ehem..ehem..]. cik writer suke tengok picture2 ta kire la di dalam album or kt dalam lappy, yang penting bile tengok picture2 ni cik writer akan tersenyum sorang2 and teringat kenangan di setiap picture yang ade tu. walau cik writer nga marah tahap ape sekali pon, tetapi bile teringat balik kenangan manis bersama si dia, sedikit demi sedikit rasa marah tu akan hilang. hurmm... >.<
5. no handphone please!
last but not lease [ade banyak lagi yang suke buat, tapi cukup lar 5 jer ok?], cik writer akan menjauhkan diri dari hp sejauh yang bule [hahaha!]. cik writer lebih suke bersendirian kalau time2 nga bad mood ni and ta nak diganggu. ye lar, jangan sekali kali simbah minyak di api yang marak kan? kalau da marah sangat2, cik writer akan off sume hp yang ade. da jdik satu tabiat buruk cik writer bile nga marah or sedih, dan tak dinafikan cik writer memang jenis yang suke pendam masalah sorang2. [no more sharing is caring]
ok la, enough for this post. da pukul brape da ni. time to get some rest. last shoutout for the blogger yang still online, "TIDO TIDO LA JAP LAGI NAK SAHUR PLAK!" ahaks! selamat berpuase sume! daa~
tangisan dapat mengurangkan kesakitan di dalam. FULL STOP.
Cry
by Rihanna
I'm not the type to get my heart broken, im not the type to get upset and cry
cause i'll never leave my heart open never hurts me to say goodbye
relationships dont get deep to me never got that whole enough thing
and someone can say they love me truly but at the time it didn't mean a thing
my mind is gone im spinning round and deep inside my tears i'll drown i'm losing grip what's happening i stray from love this is how i feel this time was different felt like I was just a victim and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart but no matter what you'll never see me cry
did it happen when we first kissed cause it's hurting me to let it go maybe cause we spend so much time and I know that it's no more I shoulda never let you hold me baby maybe why im sad to see us apart I didnt give it to you on purpose gotta figure out how you stole my heart
how did I get here with you i'll never know and never meant to let it get so personal and after all I tried to do to stay away from loving you i'm broken hearted i can let you know and i wont let it show, you wont see me cry
this time was different felt like I was just a victim and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart but no matter what you'll never see me cry, all my life
salam sume. [baek ckit bulan puase kn? :P] huhu. so sori da lame tak upda8 blog, rindu kat korag!! wee~ hehe gedik giler masya allah! hahaha. ida baru lepas berbuka puase tadi bersame2 dengan husmet. ooh yer tak yer gak, "SELAMAT BERPUASA!" agak tertinggal keretapi ckit wish ida ni, tapi tak pe la kan. janji ida wish kat korang gak. tadi beli makan berbuka kat kedai ayam dara, dapat air free. alhamdulilah rezki bulan puase~ hehe, ida nak crite benda laen sebenar2 nye. ari sabtu lepas 7hb Ogos [agak da berlapok kit ar citer ni, huhu] ida alek johor sebab ade kenduri arwah. kenduri nye lepas maghrib, alhamdulilah segala nyer berjalan lancar. and then pagi ahad 8hb Ogos, ida and family pergi ke tanah perkuburan. melawat rumah abah, dah sebulan lebih abah meninggal kan kami sekeluarga. ida rindu kat abah sangat2. bila ida tengok kat tanah yang masih merah air mata ni tibe2 mengalir deras. hurmmm... semoga abah tenang di sane, amiiiinn..... mak ade citer, mase ida kecik2 dulu, abah pernah tanya ida. ida nak jage abah tak mase abah saket nanti? ida cakap, ida tak nak jage abah. mak cakap mase tu ida kecik lagi dan tak paham ape2 yang ida cakap. walhal akhirnye, ida jage jgak abah sampai akhir hayat die....... ;(
ok lar, enough sad story for tonite. hehe, pagi tadi clas PD memang happening! group ida nyer topic pasal communication, so kiteorg berlakon ala2 macam dalam rancangan Malaysia Top Host! haha! memang besh amat! thanx kat ahli group ida and also the audience yang memang sporting abes! tq so much guys! dak B memang havoc giler vavi!! :D
22th june 2010 - trikh keramat yg ida tak kn lupa kn smpai bile2. 4 hari slpas mymbut bday ke 22 thn, 2 hari slpas Hari Bapa, seorang insan yang sgt2 berharga dlm hidup ida telah pergi utk selama2 nya. Gapar Bin Mustafar a.k.a abah ida, telah menghembus kn nafas terakhir nya pd jam 7.10pm di wad Dahlia 3, HSA JB. sprti terhenti jntung seketika bile melihat abah pejam mata utk selamanya dan tak kan kembali lg. terlalu berat ujian dari NYA utk ida trima kali ini.. tp DIA lbih menyayangi abah dan lebih berhak. abah dh menanggung sakit trlalu lama. biar lah abah pergi dgn aman.. semoga abah ditempat kn dlm kalangan org yg soleh. trime kasih abah utk segala nya.. KAKAK SAYANG ABAH SGT2.. alfatihah utk abah.... amiinnn... :((
" puan ni isteri cik Gapar n adik ni anak nya yerk? bule ke kaunter jap? sye ade perkara nk bg tahu. sye Dr R, sye harap puan bule trime ape yg akan sye bg thu.. jntung pkcik suda berhenti, kalau kami bantu sekalipon tak bule nk buat ape2.. dia da bertahan terlalu lama utk melihat anak2 dan isteri nya, biar lah dia pergi dgn aman.. puan bule bg thu waris.. tu saje puan, takziah.. "
hurmm mcm tak percaya skang da bln 5 da..cpat tul mse bjlan.. tup tup ida da nk abes final exam da..wee... tp bln ni ida rase mcm byk bnd besar yg blaku dlm hidup ida..ida xkn lupe kan smpai bile2.. knp? hurmm.. ape yg ko rase ble org yg plig korg syg kt dunia ni dlm keadaan yg kritikal kt icu.. tp korg xde di sisi nye? sebarang kemungkinan bule berlaku, buruk dan baek ketentuan NYA...
21apr
abg ude : "kak ko kt mne? tak balik kg ke? da stat cuti blum?"
ida : "kakak kt uma sewa ni ag..baru nk stat final exam ari jumat ni..knpe abg ude?"
abg ude : "ooh xde la..abg nk gtaw ni.. abah kne msuk wad kt HSA smlm..xde pape la.."
abg ude : "abah da teruk.....kak xnk alek k tgk abah?"
ida : "kakak ade exam sok, pas exam kak alek..isk..iskk..iskk...mak ane? nk ckp ngn mak.."
mak : "kak.."
ida : "mak.................abah knp?.................."
mak : "kakak blik la...tgk abah...abah da teruk doktor ckp...doktor suro pggel waris sume..."
ida : "nnt pas exam sok, kakak alek ea mak? iskkk...iskk..."
mak : "emmm..jgn fikir sgt...insyaallah xpape..bwat tbaek sok..."
ida : "nnt kirim slm sume k..salam"
sok nye, pas paper ppc..ida trus alek jb...ida mmg da xfikir exam da..yg ida taw ida nk tgk abah jek....skang abah pon stil kt wad icu ag..ida berharap sgt, ida berdoa abah cpat2 sembuh...sdih tgk abah mcm tu...kwn2, doakn abah ida cpat2 smbuh k?? amiiiiinn................. :(
Ooh my lappy.. mumy luvs u.. please dunt do this anymore to ur mumy.. mumy doesnt has the courage to see u cry.. erkk? hahaha.. something goes wrong somewhere wit my lil baby last nite.. huhu.. but everything just fine.. thnx to DR CTE..! hahaha.. i manage to get the cure all by myself! im the best! [actually i just restart the system.. no big deal at all.. but im still wana said that im the best!] :p
cry again. it may be sore, but it really can cure the pain inside. please dont ask me why im crying. coz i dont have the reply of any of ur question mark rite now. all i know is that my tears already drop last nite, full stop. it seems like something had bang into my heart, and the pain that i cant clarify.. how i wish the time can revert again, so i dont have to get through all of this tenderness. GOD please alleviate me, i dont think that i can swallow it again.. anymore.... ;(
susah kn nk cri org yg bole trime buruk & baik kita? kdang2 kenal dh berthun2, tp tu sume tak menjamin org tu bule accept kite seadanye. sdih kn bile difikir2kn? kt luar ida may be ckp mcm ni, "ada aku kisah?" or "do i look like i care?". tp dlm hati siapa yg tahu kn? certain people out there are sooo satisfied to see im crying. they maybe can keep on laughing now, but my turn is coming soon. n ill wait for it.. never stop~
