i'm not saying i have nothing. i'm not gonna saying i'm gone completely. it's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. sometimes i feel like it's too much. i'm not going to do anything stupid,

because i know it will get better. it has to right? otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years. but for now, just for now, it hurts.

i just don't feel like i know myself very well right now, so how can i be sure about anything? most of the time i feel so awkward, u'know, like i don't belong in my own skin, i get frustrated at everything, i could just scream and there's no reason for it, i just hate myself... :(